Undo's BIG GRIPE

[undo11]

Okay, i'm in aggression mode.  So my apologies if any of the following offends anyone, i'm on steroids, and i just have to vent or i'll have to run down the street and i can't do that cause i have bronchitis/sinus infection).

ANYway,  I think it's time to express how all of what i'm reading on the internet is really getting to me in a not so good way.  Half the time, I'm getting directed to read topics that i either 1) can't talk about or 2) can talk about but probably better if i didn't or 3) contains information that once again tries to blame me for  s h i t, some dudes did 1000 years ago, blame me for being white, for being chrisian for being american for being female for being alive, and on and on and on.  I mean after reading this kind of stuff for .........well years now,  is it any wonder that i'm getting a little freaked out?    How many people who aren't christian or aren't any of that other stuff i mentioned, could put up with the constant blaming for things? 

i.can't.handle.it.anymore.  i'm just fed up with it!   so don't take this wrong but if i see yet another thread about how i'm a horrible person by proxy of whatever, i'm gonna go bonkers!   well maybe i'm already a bit bonkers but that's beside the point!   

in short, can you cut me some slack?  all this negativity against christians or the bible or americans or whatever, is just wearing me out to the point where i can't deal with it anymore.  to maintain my sanity and not assume the whole thing is a carefully designed plot to destroy me for just being ALIVE,  i mean that is afterall, the extent of my actual connection to most of the s h i t , i get blamed for, by proxy., i have to either not read those kinds of threads, even when a friend of mine ?? ?? ?  asks me to read it, or just pull my hair out in big clumps till the negativity passes.  i like my hair, so could we avoid that part please?

[Amaterasu]

Beth...  I suggest NEVER taking it personally.  I read that stuff too, and just know the writer hasn't a clue.  I even laugh (laughter is good for the soul, after all).

Take a deep breath (if You can with the illness - may You get better in record time!), center, and feel the shield against negative words surround You.  And know it doesn't matter what some Others think.  YOU know the truth of You.

For Me, I figure People can blame all They want.  Doesn't make it true.

[The Seeker]

Beth, chill out, hon; when you let it get to you, they are winning; most of those turkeys are just trying to get everyone stirred up, so don't sweat the small stuff, and it's all small stuff... we have bigger fish to fry...


seeker

[sky otter]

 

ah Beth

here's one of the tools i use..hope maybe it will help..the second one takes tons of work..but i know you can do it..think of good old helen reddy
I AM WOMAN ..HEAR ME ROAR.



The Four Agreements...of don Miguel Ruiz

The Four Agreements are:

1. Be Impeccable with your Word: Speak with integrity.
Say only what you mean. Avoid using the Word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your Word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don't Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your BestYour best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

for the sinus infection..i know it sounds a bit wierd..but get a nice warm tossle cap to wear to bed
and put a small amount of herbs..preferablly thyme 
but sage or oregano are good also
under your pillow case on your pillow where you will inhale them all night
oh..live is best..you can make a small bundle in a handkerchief..no plastic
you can get a small amount of them live in most grocery stores now..in the veggie dept.

and if you really want working wierd..rub raw garlic on the soles of your feet and then warm socks
you will only laugh once....that's before you try it
i hope you can get off the nasty steroids

blessings
otter

[undo11]

thanks for the words of encouragement!
i'm wired.  but if i didn't have these steroids right now, i'd be in the hospital, so this is the preferable alternative.   

i'm a health nut otherwise, but somethings i just know about my body and one of them is:  it ain't coming up, once it goes down, without steroids.   i have a long medical history, starting with gulf war syndrome, even though i wasn't in the military.  it's contagious.  put me in a coma for 5 days on total life support but before it did, it drove me slowly insane by infection swelling my brain,  followed by breast cancer, chemo, an infected chemo port which resulted in blood poisoning, and the chemo ruined my eyesight and gave me diabetes to boot.  it had a cascade effect. that stuff ruins health and kills people  (gws, i mean) by reprogramming dna via mycoplasms, causing neurons to malfunction.

anyway, i already have this victim thing going on because of my rather severe medical history, and to add to that seeing all the constant complaining about christians, white people, females and so on, it gets to you quick when you're already overloaded with it and on meds that make you aggressive.

i apologize!

[sky otter]

there is absolutely no need to apologize...honest

consider yourself hugged

[Amaterasu]

otter, You beat Me to it.  As I read, I thought...  No need to apologize!  Let Me offer a big psychic hug!

Then I read Your post.

Beth...  No need to apologize.  Here comes a BIG psychic hug!

[burntheships]

Big hugs to you sister, and some hot tea
and a bunch of herbs from my garden for some
healing broth or soup.

When we are off our game, it seems that the things
we normally can let go get to us. I know I experience
that, especially when we are physically sick.

So no worries, we all have to vent every now and then!

Real friends walk in when everyone else has walked out.
Blessings, hugs, and prayers.

bts~

[Shasta56]

Being sick is not fun.  Being on steroids is not fun.  Sometimes ya just hafta let it out.  Feel better.

Shasta

[rdunk]

undo11, part of your problem is YOU! A big part, maybe.

Two or three things I assume you know, but maybe not staying grounded in - -(I will briefly comment, and you can look them up, if you want to).

For you, as you say who you are -

* And we know that ALL things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)  A key for us is "all things"! All All All - And did I mention "All"?

* In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. (1 Thessalonians 5:17-19) The same key - "In every thing" (same as "all things"), give thanks.

Both of these scriptures include all/every thing you mentioned that has you "wired and troubled". Just get with Him, and do what He tells us!!!!!!

There are many others, like these that are keys God has given us so that we can live our lives, for Him, in this "world". This tells us that our lives, in every way, are dependant upon His love, mercy, and grace, and our "knowing" and "understanding" can set us free from the wiles of this world, being in the world, but not of the world. Using spiritual eyes in our journey, and listening to Him, in His word, sets us free indeed!!!

It really is pretty simple for us. but there is "one" who tries his best to make it otherwise. While I don't know you undo, I assume you are everything you say. And the Word also says "Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"! (James 4:7)

Pretty simple, Huh? Now you know why I said, part of your problem is YOU, because HE is not the problem - He has given us solutions for things like this in His Word/promises!!!

Now, every day can be a good day, for you, in Him!!!

With Him too, forever!

rdunk

[undo11]

rdunk

undo11, part of your problem is YOU! A big part, maybe.

thanks.    i know these things well.  i'm an armchair bible scholar.  the issues i encounter are more related to accumulation over time of various issues, most of them directly related to survival.   the apostles willingly went to their deaths after  they were arrested.  however, the first few thousand martyrs, marched right up to the gates of the colliseum and turned themselves in till peter told them to use their common sense.

and my common sense is telling me that if we don't start speaking up in defense of ourselves as individuals and not just one big stereotype based on 6000 years of human mistakes and tragedies,  that we might as well be marching ourselves up to the gates of the colliseum.

i mean i get blamed because moses had some nigh on impossible to defend laws from a christian perspective.  but i get them stamped on me as if i agreed wholeheartedly with the situation.  how could i, as a christian, agree with that? i couldn't.  jesus' message was TOTALLY different.  i mean, his approach to our human proclivities was different!  completely. different.

i get blamed for the inquistion, when people from my particular brand of christianity were being killed right alongside the gnostics, witches, jews and other religious or world views, that differed from catholicism.  (in defense of modern day catholics, i'd also like to point out that they are no more responsible for what happened during the inquisition than blaming modern day pagans for what genghis khan did or the barbarian hordes.  we are individuals, not stereotypes!)

and being a mom and wife, i also have the inate spidey sense going off, related to the preservation of my family. 

 

[undo11]

otter, You beat Me to it.  As I read, I thought...  No need to apologize!  Let Me offer a big psychic hug!

Then I read Your post.

Beth...  No need to apologize.  Here comes a BIG psychic hug!

thanks for the hugs.
i got some sleep but my eyes are still a solid sheet of red with some blue in the middle and a little black dot in the center of that. lol  whew.  the first days of taking steroids is rough.  they are the biggest doses, with a tapering off as each day progresses.

like my first batch on day 1 was 6 of them lil buggers!  and the 2nd day (yesterday) was 5!  that stuff is accumulative too.  i was pinging off the walls.  my hubby was like "where are you getting your energy?"  cause he has the same virus i do and he was all groggy and sleepy and i was like "gibber gibber blah blah blah bork bork oogah oogah" lol  poor guy.  poor pegasus consortium peeps.

today is only 4.  i am spreading them out so maybe that will help.

[Littleenki]

thanks for the hugs.
i got some sleep but my eyes are still a solid sheet of red with some blue in the middle and a little black dot in the center of that. lol  whew.  the first days of taking steroids is rough.  they are the biggest doses, with a tapering off as each day progresses.

like my first batch on day 1 was 6 of them lil buggers!  and the 2nd day (yesterday) was 5!  that stuff is accumulative too.  i was pinging off the walls.  my hubby was like "where are you getting your energy?"  cause he has the same virus i do and he was all groggy and sleepy and i was like "gibber gibber blah blah blah bork bork oogah oogah" lol  poor guy.  poor pegasus consortium peeps.

today is only 4.  i am spreading them out so maybe that will help.

Steroids do have that accumulative effect, Undo, and you are wise to spread them out. I do that with any multi day treatment like a z pack, due to the chemicals affecting the body's natural circadian rythyms.

http://www.nigms.nih.gov/Education/Factsheet_CircadianRhythms.htm

They are tested thouroghly, and they found they work better that way, but people will forget to take them if they dont do it every day, so the medical field sets the standard. We can all learn from that standard, and adjust it to our specific physical needs, That's what youre doing now, and it works. Just remember to take them at exactly the same time every day, and preferably not within two hours of sleep. It'll ncrease the effectiveness exponentially if you do that, too!
I dont know you well yet, but there is a huge wind of healing comin' your way, and I know you'll be well soon! Bronch sucks!
Feel better, Littleenki

[The Seeker]

No need to apologize, Beth, for those of us that have known you for a while realize what you have been through and have had to deal with... just let it out and work on getting better...

((((HUGS))))   


seeker

[rdunk]

rdunk

thanks.    i know these things well.  i'm an armchair bible scholar.  the issues i encounter are more related to accumulation over time of various issues, most of them directly related to survival. 

Undo, first I want to say that I have much compassion for you, with all that you have mentioned. Our day to day lives in this world can be the "pits" at times, especially with situations that require dealing with other people. But then, for each of us, we have the lives we have. So, with that in mind, we have to decide how is it for each of us to live in this world, and stand, remaining sane and productive individuals.

While everyone of us has  problems and issues, we are all different, and each of us has a different set of problems and issues, with many however being similar. For instance, on a personal note, I was diagnosed 35 years ago with M.S., and I am now a two year survivor after bladder cancer surgery. Everybody - and that is everybody - has their own set of "life circumstances".

Now the key difference for us, as Christians, is that we have spiritual help every step of the way. I handled both of the personal circumstances I mentioned the very same, after being diagnosed, and continuing. I thanked and praised God anyway, and I told Him directly that the M.S. was his problem not mine, and that the bladder cancer was his problem, and not mine. I was His child, and however He dealt with it would be fine with me. As far as I am concerned, he has taken care of both situations!!! All of this included much prayer.

Your being the "bible scholar", (that I am not) you probable know the whole story of Joseph, in Genisis. It touches my heart every time I read it, because it presents the details of the life of hardship that Joseph had. A very hard life, after being sold into Egypt by his brothers. He was just a plain guy, who was having a very hard life. But God always had a plan for him, and "every thing" he was going through were just steps (unknown to him) toward the fulfillment of God's own plan for his life.  And he ended up being second only to Pharaoh in Egypt, and was directly responsible for saving his own people in the years of famine.

Undo, I am sorry that you have had so much to deal with personally. But, get those monkeys off of your back, and out of your mind! Give them to God, and tell Him that from now on these are His problems to deal with, and not yours. And "in every thing, give Him thanks"!

By the way, just a note of caution, that you probably know better than I. Knowing what the Word says gets that Word into our minds. But that Word, in our minds/flesh, is lifeless. That Word comes alive in our spiritual hearts and lives, as we accept it, and act upon it, in faith, believing that God will do what he says He will do. That is how miracles are born!!!

Proverbs 16:9 is at the very root of what we are talking about.

Every day will be a better day, until He comes, so let's just start with today!!!!

rdunk